Vile Thoughts...!

Here i go again, drunk in my own self-destructing memories. Damn, this things doesn't go at all. Memories! Darn, they are too exhausting even to let it go. Pain is better than these vile memories. Silent it is, in it, yet so destructive.
Oh!  i wish i were so invisible, atleast to her. I just wish i never had listened to Vanilla Twilight and get drunk in my own self-replicating thoughts.

I fall from this high hopes of my own life when these memories cross me everytime the sky cries, so silently! I love it when this pain hits me; hits me like an invisible bullet, brushes me inside out, tears are just a silent pay for my misled thoughts. How do i control the vaccum of thoughts, entirely of her?? How do i let the song to stop echoing?? How do i control my excruciating yell?
The wind is so silent beside me, ruffling around my ears whispering the lie that i always thought to be so true. I was and so were my feelings! Perhaps, somewhere i went wrong. And this darn  imaginations are costing me a lot.
Why did i again thought that the world will appear flat to me? Why did i ever had the slightest of thoughts that it was true? Huh, i am too drunk these days in her thoughts.
I lie awake in the Hut, just like the moon, reflecting its painful colour, yet no one but me to appreciate the beauty it reflects. Sigh! I am not talking sense perhaps. The wind still keeps blowing, echoing the presence and songs of her. MAN! What do i do?   
I walk this lonely road, but this time only the wind whispering the pain i feel!
But then, i love it...

12:30 am
The Hut
16th July

The Viento

Burnt Memories.....!!!

How much can you hurt me?

If I just look up and smile?

Without you knowing

That I can love you forever while?

How much can you hate me?

If I just keep staring at you

With silence all around me

And for all you know its true?

How much can you ignore me?

If still I keep running after you,

Humming my worth silently,

The feelings I have you never knew?

How much can you make me pain?

As I had loved it all along,

The beauty in it again,

Is not it reflecting my beautiful song?

How much can you make me bleed?

The blood of love in heart i keep,

But still you never even care,

That it’s my love all around here?

How much can you make me cry?

By the words that you easily say,

And yes, I knew, for you I am a lie,

For sorrows say will never fade away??

How much can you hurt me?

If I just look up and smile,

The love for you,

Will be there forever while.

The Viento

Death with Despair!

Heart-gasping sound of eternity,
Deep breathing within me!
Stumbled upon, blood darkness,
I closed my eyes, in her lie-livid beauty...

The Viento